New “year”, a new focus, new goals.

I know that I must learn to be organized and have a balance in my life, but I never end up taking the steps to really do it!  I always put my health behind and succumb to the worldly pleasures, particularly junk food and laziness.

I have a trip planned for next year. I will fly to Canada to meet my niece in person, visit my sister and my brother-in-law. This would be the first time I travel to Canada and want to be able enjoy the experience without feeling uncomfortable about my weight, because it limits me to many things. And finally, of course, look good in the photos! (I’m a shutter bug and a bit narcissistic too!)

On my birthday I was on 218.0 pounds, I bit lighter than last year. So I think I’m on good track.

On July 1, 2009 I want to be 173.4 pounds and 33% fat as my  nutritionist aims to. This was my lightest weight that I have reached in my adult life, it was on January 2006.

Right now I’m in a 1200 calorie nutritional plan and exercise 4 times per week consisting of 1 hour of cardio and 2 days out of those 4 I have to do 3 sets of 50 reps of abdominal exercises to start defining my waist. This guidelines were assigned to me yesterday and I plan to start it this Monday December 7, 2009.

On January 2, I want to weigh 210.4 at least. That would represent that I lost 40 pounds on year 2009.

This is a difficult month at my job, the streets are crazy, the summer arrived. So many factors to confront, but that’s life right? =)

Hugs, Jeannette

Breakfast: 261.5 calories

Two Whole Grain with Raisins Bread Slices (154), 1 Tbsp Light Margarine (30), Turkey Breast Ham (75), 2.5 Cups Water

Snack: 60 calories

Two Small Apple Bananas (60)

Lunch: 517

2 Cups Boiled Yucca (272), 2 Deep Fried Chicken Frankfurter (175), 1/3 Tomato and Lettuce Salad (20), 2 Bubble Gum (40), 2.5 Cups Crystal Light (10)

Snack: 72

6 Soda Cracker squares (72), 2 cups of water

Dinner: 456

Tomato and Lettuce Salad (40), 1 Cup Light Nectar (56), 14 Soda Crackers (150), 1.5 Light Mozarella Cheese (60), Turkey Ham 3 onz (150), 2 cups of water.

Snack: Two Bubblegum (40)

Exercise: 45 minutes Recumbent Bike

It its really difficult to work with the distribution my nutritionist gave me. The breakfast is the smallest of the three main meals, the snacks are too low. Lunch is huge, I couldnt finish eating it all. And dinner is quite heavy too.

I will have to modify it for sure, will work on it after doing exercise today. Will try to make it more stable in calorie amounts, specially because I plan to do my exercise early in the morning and in order to recover I will need my breakfast to be larger than the one I have right now.

It was a big amount of food yet still in the calorie range. :)

Hello Guys,

I’m back, ready to continue my journey. I’m on a 1400 calorie plan this time, under the guidance of a nutritionist (no, not that other crazy b——-). My goal is to be on 210 by my birthday (5 weeks) and 200 by the end of the year (10 weeks).

It is really doable; I only have to be organized and disciplined. Will do exercise in the following pattern 2 days - off - 2 days - off - and so on. Will be focused on doing cardio, no weight training for now in order to avoid hurting my knee and shoulder injury again.

My weight today was 218.4 pounds and fat percentage in 45.0%.

I’m really motivated this time, got a lot to work on, both in my personal and professional life. Organization and discipline are the key words. I have to get my act together for once and for all.

;)

My lab tests results came in today.

I’m happy to know that:

• I’m not prediabetic.
• My thyroids are fine.
• I’m not anemic.
• I’m perfectly crazy! :)
• I’m having problems managing lipids

My sister and I inherited the genetics which cause us to not manage lipids correctly from our mother and she from her father. This is treatable with medicine, but I will give the nutritional habits and exercise a try to see if there is any change. I will take the test again on saturday October 25 (in 21 days). I have to behave this 3 weeks and at least do exercise for 15 days at least for 30 min per day.

I made a control sheet of my latest exams, the constant is that I was over 215 pounds for sure. I hope to find older exams to check the lipid results in case I need to go to an endocrinologist.

It is a great relief to know that my insulin and glucose are fine.

YAY! :D

After my hiatus I went to a new nutritionist. She is a doctor and says she also studied nutrition and such. A friend of my husband recommended her and I was feeling really positive. But by the second day it just went wrong. This experience just taught me to continue doing my stuff alone.

I had such a bad experience! Let me tell you what I can remember…

First appointment with her was on Monday at 4pm. She saw both my husband and me. It took long (because we brought old exams, empty packages of food we had been eating, and other stuff, which at the moment they were really interested in) so her assistant was the one who wrote the nutrition plan to follow for a week while she left to see another client who had an appointment after us.

There was a lack of communication and we understood that you could choose the day you wanted, as many times as you wanted, instead that the plan was fixed, only that you could follow a different order but not repeat the days. We already told them that we had previous experiences with other nutritionists so my husband and I never thought it was fixed, we thought they were options, so we did the mistake of repeating 3 days the same meal option (we didn’t realize that until the second appointment I requested for yesterday). I called her on Tuesday evening -she didn’t answer, and I left a message. She didn’t call us back, so I wrote her an e-mail on Wednesday evening asking her to please check the plan and  see if there was something wrong, or to find an open slot to see us and talk about it as we both were feeling really bad. On Thursday morning I SMSed her and ask her to please check the email, she replied she didn’t understand why we were feeling that way and that she didn’t have a an open slot that day. The day passed and same story on Friday, she had a one at 4pm, so we took it and went in.

As you may recall, I started this blog counting calories, etc. This is a habit I developed and I’m okay with it. Well… continuing…

4:00 pm arrived and we were waiting to be seen, she calls us and as we walk into her office she says in a sarcastic tone “The nutritionist Jeannette”… So, guess what? She got offended due to my email and me feeling weak, etc. According to her I have a “psychological problem” and insisted many times on it. She basically, in other “polite” words -of course- and without losing her “temper” -smiling- said that she had the medical and nutrition degree, not me and that the plan was okay. I showed her my food diary and she didn’t even read it! She scolded me, politely of course, that I should not be doing that because it is an additional stress and that she didn’t request that. Again, I have a psychological problem -of course. She didn’t believe us when we told her what the assistant told us. At least there was one of the assistant’s instructions in writing and it was wrong she noted, but she changed the subject. I reached a point that I just said, “okay, okay,” and barely spoke, -barely listened to her anymore. I was so angry and simply concentrated on not exploding.

The thing is that if she would have taken 1 minute to check, she would have noticed that we repeated 3 days of the menu. BUT NO, I don’t have the degree so I HAVE NO RIGHT TO QUESTION HER. I have no right to know, to remain in the darkness and what she provided us would be the be inquisitive, or to investigate about the subject related to MY health. I have to light, no questions asked.

BUT, in our first appointment we mentioned some stuff we had, one of them being our Tanita scale that provides more information than the ones they use. She told me to remember to bring it on the next appointment, which is scheduled for Tuesday 6. And in yesterday’s appointment after treating me as a crazy person, she reminded us TWICE to remember to bring our scale (because she wants to compare the results with hers and maybe buy one for herself, -who knows) about 5 minutes before leaving and also as we were walking out her office.

THEN IN THAT CASE IT IS GOOD THAT I KNOW ABOUT SOME NUTRITION/HEALTH STUFF, FOR HER BENEFIT. AM I NOT THE CRAZY OBSSESED PERSON? GO TO HELL.

If she felt / feels  offended by me questioning her plan, her assistant, or inquiring for her to check what we were eating to see where the mistake was, she is not a good professional and she just didn’t like that some people are interested in knowing MORE than what they PROVIDE them. I’m proactive and naturally curious. Don’t like it? Okay. Then I will not bother her with my presence, questions, money, and my precious scale. :p

I know quite enough in my opinion and I just have to trust myself. I should believe in myself and not in vain have I invested so much $$$ in books, equipment and tools. I did it once, alone, and I lost 50 pounds in 8 months, no sagging skin, no weakness, etc. And with assistance of nutritionists only with the third it worked quite well, but she got involved in politics and didn’t have the same customer service as in the beginning. Now the campaign has ended so maybe she’ll have more time now, just in case.

I had my exams done today and the results will be ready on Monday. Will ask my father to check them, he is a doctor (OB-GYN), and in case I need another person to check them, I’ll do that too. But I will not go back with this doctor; she lost two patients, future patients we might recommend, money, etc.

Lesson: Trust yourself and don’t let anyone treat you as an inferior being no matter how many degrees they have or crazy. You deserve respect as much as them!

LOS LOCOS SOMOS MAS, CARAJO!!!!!! :D

I had to again put work as priority, my boss wants to do some stuff and he doesn’t care if you are already busy… but okay. This will end this month for sure. Will give a last effort this weekend and everything to a point that day by day I can continue providing the results to my boss.

This Monday 28 I have my appointment with a Doctor, specialized in Weight Loss and Metabolic Syndrome. I plan to follow her guidelines. I’m against eating modified stuff, artificial sweeteners, etc. But in my case, I guess it is really necessary in order to lose weight. Once I’m reaching my goal weight and the doctor will raise my calories I will switch to less processed food.

Will be back on September 29, 2009. I guess I have to restart the count? :D

My main goal still is to be on 200 pounds by my birthday, Nov 24. It is quite a challenge, but reaching 210 and be able to get into my old jeans will be enough! =)

Write to you soon!

Scale says I’m still in 223.0, although if I’m not wrong I think the fat % went up.

The end of last week has been crazy and this week will be the same. I guess I have to finally get organized, as on Monday, September 28 Im going to a Weight Management Dr., no, not a nutricionist. A General Medicine Doctor specialized in Weight Control and Metabolic Syndrome.

So I guess I will finish eating all the “bad stuff” that I have in my house these week, not much though.

This doctor works with fat free, calorie free and artificial sweeted stuff. I don’t want to eat that stuff, but I have to acccept that I’m going to need that extra help while I lose weight, when I’m close to my goal weight then I think I will be able to move to non or less processed stuff, not to say organic as here in Panama there are not so many organic stuff.

Will try to behave this week :p Why it is always an urge to have some type of binge when you know what is going to happen when you go to another person to help you with your diet / new eating habits? hahahaha.

I already had one today, eat one frozen pizza 991 calories. Was not really worth it.

Note: Don’t buy more frozen pizza EVER!

I’m feeeling dizzy… that’s it for today. :)

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